[ It is indeed the opposite of relaxing. He stiffens, pointedly shifting to create some distance. ]

My stepfather strongly believed in the phrase 'spare the rod, spoil the child'. And I had a strong disobedience streak.

[ He finally dares to look back at Kazuma. That dangerous streak in his expression. That strong, handsome face. He pushes those thoughts down, trying to focus on how good the water feels.]

But that's ancient history. Nothing that bothers me anymore.