[There's... a LONG pause before Kotori answers again. It's not that she doesn't trust the Disciple. ... Well, not JUST that. She still wants to believe he's a kind if reserved person, and she feels sorry that his essence forces him to be that violent, but... She IS nervous about this Hyde the others spoke of. What would make him come out? What if he does, while the two of them have a weapon AND one of her greatest fears literally in arm's reach? And what if turning him down sets him off too?
But mostly it's for her own reasons that she hesitates. If it was just a matter of pushing through, she would have done so by now. To keep herself fed while alone, or to be more useful to the others here. The cut on her finger is small, long-healed with only a tiny scar to show for it. But... the memories surrounding when she got it? Those are wounds that haven't healed yet.
On the other hand... This is the Disciple trying to apologize? How much guilt would be on her mind if SHE got his Essence and did those things instead? How would she feel if her attempts to apologize were rebuffed?
...
When she finally writes again, the text appears slowly, almost haltingly, but still deliberately.]
That's really thoughtful of you to offer, Disciple-san. I can't promise I'll be a good student, but I'll try my best. Thank you.
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But mostly it's for her own reasons that she hesitates. If it was just a matter of pushing through, she would have done so by now. To keep herself fed while alone, or to be more useful to the others here. The cut on her finger is small, long-healed with only a tiny scar to show for it. But... the memories surrounding when she got it? Those are wounds that haven't healed yet.
On the other hand... This is the Disciple trying to apologize? How much guilt would be on her mind if SHE got his Essence and did those things instead? How would she feel if her attempts to apologize were rebuffed?
...
When she finally writes again, the text appears slowly, almost haltingly, but still deliberately.]
That's really thoughtful of you to offer, Disciple-san. I can't promise I'll be a good student, but I'll try my best. Thank you.